I really don't want to teach...not right now. With having three kids, it just doesn't seem like a great idea to me right now.
I did work, right up until we moved. I worked from home for a public health consultant doing logistical stuff. I also worked for two other people doing their bookkeeping. This was great work because I could schedule my hours around the kids. And I even found daycare that wouldn't break my bank in the form of helpful friends and inlaws.
Working from home was great, but it had it downslides too. I don't need to get into it that right now, but suffice to say everything has it downs.
Recently, I asked Kevin "Do you want me to get back to work?" He said he had nothing to do with this consultant and he understands me needing to stay home with the kids. I'd love to do something in education that would allow me to stay home, but the only thing I can think of is curriculum development of some kind...but I don't even know if I could find work doing that.
Really, do I want to work? No...no I don't. With the kids right now, I'm fine with taking care of them. There is that part of me that feels bad for wanting to just stay home. That part of me that feels I need to contribute...but I've done that contribute thing, and it caused so much stress in this house it wasn't funny. Yes, right now I feel lost, but I want to take this year to really, really look at where I want to go in life. Teacher? Not really sure. In an emergency, it's a great thing...but I have my doubts. Public health? Been there, done that, not sure if they have a job that allows me to do what I really want to do in that. Writing? I wish...I really do...and that would take a ton of discipline on my part...which i have, but haven't tapped into for years...
So we shall see...
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